I’ve been havin mixed emotions lately… Sometimes im angry, sad, like to b alone, like sum1 to entertain me and sumtimes felt like breaking down…
Ive been thinking alot.. Thinking thru my every actions.. whether i hav to b gd to ppl or not… Wad will i receive back.. A simple thank u, or a stab in the back…?? Trying to see whether i do make a difference in other ppl’s lives… Do i?? THinking about wad m i doin in my life… About wad m i doin with my life… Whether i shd try to keep slim?? Or shd i just follow wad my stomach wants…? Whether anybody cares about the way i look?? or whether ppl change the way they think of me, when they look…. Is this all very important?? Or shd i dun care and just eat eat eat??
Ive also been thinking about the hearts i broke so far.. Shd i hav done all tt?? Or shd i hav given them a chance, even though im not interested.. ?? Its hard to get to noe sum1 realli well nowadays… They can show me a side of them… But wad about their other sides?? Will i like their other sides?? Or will i onli find out when its too late?? And even if i reject, who noes she will be the one for me… Wad if she hated me for rejecting her in the past?? Will i hav to drop my pride and continue to chase after her?? Even if i chase after her, wad if another one comes along…??
Im really thinking too much rite?? Well i cant help it.. Sorry to all the guys at camp for trying to comfort me.. I just dun feel like talking much nowadays ah.. I noe no1 reads but, hope u all understand ah eh.. Its a tough period for me.. And i realli think im too mature for my age… Imagine thinking about stuffs tt onli older ppl think about.. None of my frenz will think like this i think… All they will think is tt we’re still young and we shd concentrate on having fun.. I think im too traditional ah.. Why m i like this anw…? I dunnoe la.. Let time heal me…
